“It would have sounded honest.”
He stared at the table.
“Mom kept telling me a man should control the money in his marriage.”
I frowned.
“So you gave yours to her?”
He looked embarrassed.
“I know how stupid that sounds.”
I remained quiet.
He continued.
“I thought if I stopped contributing, you’d finally realize how important my income was.”
I felt something inside me ache.
For years, I’d been trying to make Derek feel valued.
And he had interpreted my financial independence as a threat.
“You wanted me to struggle,” I said.
He swallowed.
“I wanted you to need me.”
Those words hurt.
Not because I had never suspected his insecurity.
But because he’d finally admitted he’d tried to create hardship in order to feel powerful.
I looked at him.
“Derek, I married you because I loved you.”
He nodded.
“I know.”
“Not because I needed someone to pay my bills.”