“You’re sick. I can’t do this.”
I thought he’d misunderstood my diagnosis.
“The doctor said the treatment has a good chance of working.”
“That’s not what I’m saying.”
I stepped aside to let him reach the shelf.
He opened the closet.
I stepped aside to let him reach the shelf. After thirty-five years, moving out of his way was instinct.
Then he pulled down a second suitcase.
That was when I understood.
“You’re leaving?”
“I’m sorry.”
I remember asking whether he still loved me. I remember him saying he needed space.
“Tomorrow?”
He zipped the first suitcase.
“I don’t want to fight.”
“Then look at me.”
He didn’t.
I remember asking whether he still loved me. I remember him saying he needed space.
“Maybe he’ll come back.”
I don’t remember hearing the front door close.
Claire drove me to treatment the following morning. I told her Randall had left, and she pulled into a gas station because she was crying too hard to drive.