WHEN I STOPPED BEING USEFUL: A MOTHER’S JOURNEY BACK TO HER OWN LIFE –

Throw it away.

Except this note.

Keep this because I know you.

You spend your whole life making places feel like home for other people.

Remember to keep one place for yourself.

Love,

A.

I stopped breathing for a moment.

Daniel watched me quietly.

My eyes blurred.

This grief was different from the grief after Arthur died.

That grief had felt like falling through a floor.

This was softer.

A door opening unexpectedly onto a room I thought I would never see again.

“He wrote this?”

“Apparently.”

“I never saw it.”

“He probably forgot he wrote it.”

“That also sounds like him.”

Daniel smiled.

I folded the note carefully.

“He would have liked your place.”

“I think so.”

“He would have made fun of the community yoga.”

“He made fun of everything involving flexibility.”

We laughed.

I took Arthur’s note home and placed it beside his photograph.

Not inside the blue folder.

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