I closed my eyes.
“That’s what it felt like,” I admitted. “Not because I didn’t love her. Because I didn’t know how to walk into that room without falling apart.”
Linda’s face softened just slightly.
“Love that cannot enter pain becomes very lonely, Ethan.”
I opened my eyes.
There was no accusation in her voice now.
Only grief.
“I know,” I said.
“Do you love her?”
The question was simple.
The answer was not.
Because loving Sophie had never stopped.
It had only become tangled in fear, failure, resentment, helplessness, and shame.
“Yes,” I said.
Linda studied me.
“Then don’t confuse loving her with needing her to make you feel forgiven.”
I looked away.
“You are not the center of this,” she continued. “Her illness is not your redemption story. She needs steadiness. Not grand gestures. Not speeches. Not panic.”
“I understand.”
“I hope you do.”
She stood.
Then, after a long pause, she added, “She asked for you when they took her for the biopsy.”
I looked up sharply.
Linda’s eyes shone.
“She was half-conscious from the medication. She kept saying your name.”
The words hit me harder than anything she had said before.
