She never did.
Silas found me twenty minutes later.
He didn’t ask me to choose between him and my family.
He simply removed his jacket, wrapped it around me, loaded my ruined things into his truck, and said, “We’ll figure it out.”
[And we did.
We slept on his father’s foldout couch for eight months.
We counted my diner tips into a coffee can marked RENT.
Some weeks, Silas ate peanut-butter sandwiches for dinner and insisted he preferred them because tuition was due.
I became a nurse.
Silas entered the fire academy.
Years passed.
I became a NICU nurse.
Silas became a firefighter.
Then a lieutenant.
Then a captain.
We bought a modest white-sided house with a blue door.
We paid it off early.
Then, after years of hoping and one miscarriage I had mostly cried through alone, Ren arrived.
Holding her for the first time taught me something that somehow hurt worse than being thrown out.
Love for your child wasn’t supposed to have conditions.
I looked at Ren and knew there was no person she could become that would make me erase her for fifteen years.
Now my mother stood on my porch pretending those years were a disagreement.