He sat at a child-sized table.
He looked thinner.
No expensive jacket.
No confident posture.
Just a father with a coloring book.
Fiona stood near the door.
She stared at him.
He smiled.
“Hi, bug.”
She did not move.
His smile trembled.
“I missed you.”
Fiona turned toward the supervisor.
“Mommy?”
I was not supposed to enter unless needed.
But the supervisor looked toward the glass.
A moment later I stepped inside.
Fiona ran to me.
Luca closed his eyes.
That expression hurt more than I expected.
He loved her.
I knew he did.
That was the tragedy.
Love had not made him brave.
It had not made him safe.
People liked to believe love automatically made people good.
It didn’t.
Sometimes love existed inside cowardice.
Inside selfishness.
Inside fear.
And sometimes that made the damage harder to understand, not easier.
Luca looked at me over Fiona’s head.
“I’m sorry.”
I said nothing.
He swallowed.
“I thought if you believed I could take Fiona, you’d stop talking about leaving.”
“You could have asked me why I wanted to leave.”
“I knew why.”
That answer nearly destroyed me.
He knew.
He had always known.
I sat across from him.