We married the following spring. Several years later, he laid Nancy against my chest, and her fingers caught my hospital gown.
“Dorothy? What’s wrong?”
“She knows her mom,” he whispered.
I looked down at that tiny fist and remembered loosening another one, finger by finger.
“Dorothy? What’s wrong?”
“Nothing. I’m just tired.”
My mother had told the first lie.
There had been chances before our wedding, during the pregnancy, on quiet evenings when Nancy slept upstairs. Whenever I considered telling him, I imagined him asking why I had waited so long.
Then I waited longer.
My mother had told the first lie. Every time I watched my husband kiss Nancy goodnight and said nothing about her brother, I chose to keep it alive.
At her house, I found the paperwork in a drawer.
Then my mother’s stroke sent me back into her house—and toward something I wasn’t supposed to find.
At her house, I found the paperwork in a drawer. Beneath it sat a shoebox containing two bundles of letters.
One had my name written across yellowed envelopes.
My husband’s handwriting.
“Your mother said you don’t want me to contact you. “
I opened the first.
“Your mother said you don’t want me to contact you. Please tell me yourself. I thought we were happy.”