Helen looked down at the photograph. “Mom only got this.”
“Robert had moved by then,” Helen said. “The letter had to be forwarded to their new address. Mom said when it finally arrived, the envelope was torn open and sealed inside a plastic postal bag.”
She touched the photograph.
“By the time Mom got it, this was the only thing still inside.”
Anna saw Margaret smiling with a newborn in her arms and thought she finally had proof.
Margaret had the daughter she really wanted.
“I sent her another card on her birthday,” Mom whispered.
Helen reached into the box.
“I know.”
She handed Mom an envelope. Mom recognized it before she touched it.
Her own handwriting covered the front.
Across the front, under Mom’s handwriting, someone had printed three words in blue ink.
“RETURN TO SENDER.”
Helen touched the writing.
“That’s Mom’s.”
Mom’s fingers shook.
“She sent this back.”
“Yes.”
Mom stared at the blue writing. “Then why was she waiting for another one?”
Helen swallowed.
“Mom told me she sent it back because she wanted to see if you’d try again. Then she checked the mailbox every day for weeks.”
Mom stared at her.
“Then Christmas came. She thought you’d write.”
“I didn’t.”
“I know.”
“I thought I was respecting what she wanted.”
Helen wiped her cheek. “She thought you’d stopped trying.”
Mom bowed her head. For decades, each of them had believed the other’s silence was an answer.
“Why didn’t she find me when she got older?” Mom asked.
There was no accusation in it.
Only pain.
Helen looked down.
“For the same reason you didn’t find her, I think.”
Mom said nothing.
“She was afraid the answer would hurt more than not knowing.”
Years passed.
